Our stories - her past is not her future
Testimonial 1
'Wow, what a day! Lunch with Bronwen was so enjoyable. This is my first entry in this journal (a thoughtful and lovely gift from my friend and mentor Bronwen Healy). To think that I have come this far since 1st September last year. From where I was at when I was reading 'Trophy of Grace', Bron's book, until now, is truely amazing. I literally had no friends left (L took care of that), I was broken, shattered, stripped raw and at the mercy of my family. And I was trying to gain back the trust of my precious boys (who were no longer in my care). Now I have since found God, I have 100% care of my two sons who love me as I am and trust me again. I have regained some of my family's love and trust and also I have an ever-increasing circle of friends (which is constantly widening). I have also since had some of my dearest and oldest friends come back to me. How blessed do I feel!
Not to mention a new house, new fantastic car and a new job. I'm also an international student home-stay host (hold a blue card), do volunteer work at A's school and hold a current CPR certificate. I am secretary of the Ladies Auxillery at Algester State School and most importantly I go to church every Sunday.
I literally had nothing left, my spirit was broken and I know now that God spoke to me and placed his hand upon me late that last night I spent with L (who was Satan or Lucifer himself).I called out to God to protect me that night and help me find a way out, all I could see was death or jail (I so wanted to die).
The 1st of September I was a helpless, homeless heroin addict. I gave up my boys for 3wks, fooling myself that I could live without them, while I tried to get away from L and my heroin filled exsitence. I did get away from L and heroin , but it made me realise that I couldn't function without my babies. There was no point to living without them. They were the only reason I'm still alive today.
I died a little more each day that pasted, not seeing them. Not even speaking to them. It was killing me. I have never felt so depressed in all my life. The Lord kept me alive long enough to hear Him and meet Him and realise that I am worthy of being alive and loved. I am special and loving and kind and good. I can teach my boys so much and I'm excited by my future and the prospect of what's to come.
I have a faith that noone can challenge, and trust and respect for myself that cannot be broken. I am 100% clean, no more drugs in my life, I don't even have friends around me who touch them. This is all thanks to my Almighty Father and all the angels in heaven and earth that He has placed in a very tight ring around me. I am more that 'there' i feel it more each day. L, Dr.R, Mum, R, A & H, Bronwen, J & L and Elevate Church, A, G. You are all around me and I know, praying for me and watching out for me. I have never felt more loved or secure, never! It's all good, it really is, even when it's tough I know I am safe.
IT'S ALL GOOD!
